Whew! Deep breath.
That's one of the many welcomed features of pregnancy #2 being over - I can actually literally breathe again thanks to the removal of the feet plastered to my rib cage! It is remarkable what your body can do and the changes it can make in a matter of minutes and the birthing process is completely amazing.
I decided to launch a new series of posts aptly titled "Bringing Home Baby #2" for you all to follow and join me in my journey as I transition into being a mom of 2 (or 3 if you count the hubby). I can GUARANTEE that the upcoming weeks hold many ups and downs, trials and tribulations and many many tears. However, these are things that I am choosing to share with you all in hopes that it may help encourage, console or inspire you through your respective journeys as well. Let's face it -- this shit isn't easy.
That's one of the many welcomed features of pregnancy #2 being over - I can actually literally breathe again thanks to the removal of the feet plastered to my rib cage! It is remarkable what your body can do and the changes it can make in a matter of minutes and the birthing process is completely amazing.
I decided to launch a new series of posts aptly titled "Bringing Home Baby #2" for you all to follow and join me in my journey as I transition into being a mom of 2 (or 3 if you count the hubby). I can GUARANTEE that the upcoming weeks hold many ups and downs, trials and tribulations and many many tears. However, these are things that I am choosing to share with you all in hopes that it may help encourage, console or inspire you through your respective journeys as well. Let's face it -- this shit isn't easy.
Bringing Home Baby #2; Days 1-5
One thing you all should know about me is that I do very little in moderation. I tend to over-do EVERYTHING, so why should parenting be any different? My brain is literally spinning with the 10,459 things that have run through my mind in the past few days that I want to share with you all but I'll just start with a few today as time will allow.
1. The guilt set in again instantly.
I didn't expect that to change with this baby or through this experience. But literally I kid you not, the second we walked in the door from the hospital this is where my brain went ---
1. The guilt set in again instantly.
I didn't expect that to change with this baby or through this experience. But literally I kid you not, the second we walked in the door from the hospital this is where my brain went ---
"Okay, I need to find the baby book now. If I don't put these hospital bracelets in there now they will never go in there. Wait, what time was he born -- oh crap -- I need to write this down NOW. Where the hell is the baby book? Under this pile of dirty clothes that grew x 10 since we've been gone or tucked away in his room somewhere or WAIT --- did my W-2 come for our taxes? We need to get that stuff to the accountant ASAP so we can get our new home loan finalized. Okay, let me just start organizing this pile of 46 pieces of paper the hospital gave me and maybe it's somewhere lost in there. Need to order birth certificate but have to wait 5 days for it to get in their system, okay. Social security card, can't forget to order that one but that has to wait another two weeks. OH -- have to add him to our insurance but they are closed and since I only seem to be awake in evening hours that should be a fun obstacle to overcome."
So, you see where I'm going with this guys? I have a complete inability to shut down. My body and my brain.
THEY. NEVER. STOP.
This was the hardest obstacle for me to overcome when my daughter first came home and I'm guessing it will be with my son now as well. I would love nothing more than to have the feeling of no obligation to anyone or anything other than my child. To be able to come home, gaze at them for hours on end, relax and enjoy all the million rewarding feelings of becoming a new mom again. But I'm just not built that way, and I feel guilty for that. Let me be clear here in saying that I do enjoy every moment with him, but I don't have the ability to stop life around me as it continues to move and I sit still. Not an option even though I wish so very badly it was for me.
THEY. NEVER. STOP.
This was the hardest obstacle for me to overcome when my daughter first came home and I'm guessing it will be with my son now as well. I would love nothing more than to have the feeling of no obligation to anyone or anything other than my child. To be able to come home, gaze at them for hours on end, relax and enjoy all the million rewarding feelings of becoming a new mom again. But I'm just not built that way, and I feel guilty for that. Let me be clear here in saying that I do enjoy every moment with him, but I don't have the ability to stop life around me as it continues to move and I sit still. Not an option even though I wish so very badly it was for me.
2. You WILL find the love.
I found myself worried, more like terrified, throughout my pregnancy that I wouldn't be able to love this baby as much as I did #1. I kept thinking there was nothing, no way - no how, that could ever come along and "steal" some love away from her.
BOY WAS I WRONG! I have so much love for my son, it's crazy! Even better, I've since learned that this new love steals absolutely nothing away from my princess and it remains so overly abundant for her as well. As with many things in life, just when you think you have nothing more to give, you seem to find some on your front door step like it's been waiting for you to come around and pick it up all along.
I found myself worried, more like terrified, throughout my pregnancy that I wouldn't be able to love this baby as much as I did #1. I kept thinking there was nothing, no way - no how, that could ever come along and "steal" some love away from her.
BOY WAS I WRONG! I have so much love for my son, it's crazy! Even better, I've since learned that this new love steals absolutely nothing away from my princess and it remains so overly abundant for her as well. As with many things in life, just when you think you have nothing more to give, you seem to find some on your front door step like it's been waiting for you to come around and pick it up all along.
3. I have vegetables on my breasts.
In case you were wondering... cabbage leaves relieve the engorgement of your lactating breasts.
Yep. That pretty much sums it up.
In case you were wondering... cabbage leaves relieve the engorgement of your lactating breasts.
Yep. That pretty much sums it up.
That's all for now as motherly duties are calling but I will post more shortly. I will be journaling and posting as frequently as possible over the upcoming weeks, so stay tuned! However, in an attempt to cherish these first few memories with my baby boy, it will likely be less than usual.
Be well friends!
Be well friends!
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